This is it

Getting a divorce sucks.  Planning to get divorced in four year sucks even more.  Here we gooooooo.

Why are people so annoying?

I feel like by this time of year that I will safely be able to say heaters do not need to be used.  So why would someone use a personal space heater at work when our department is already the warmest on the entire floor?  There is a thermostat that tells me it is constantly 77-80 in our area.  Yet if a little bit of air blows the wrong way, TIME TO TURN ON A FUCKING HEATER.  I have even asked this person to not leave it on for more than 15 minutes because it upsets my stomach.  NOPE.  They get "tired" when they are cold.   I feel if you are cold when it is over 75, you may have a medical condition.  Like go see a doctor.  Let's add the fact they have a blanket they could use that they keep sitting RIGHT NEXT TO THEM.  Said person just wants to be a asshat and make everyone else as miserable as they are.  I don't think there is any other fathomable reason to use a space heater at this point in time.  If I ever lose my cool and get fired over something stupid, it would be this person that would probably just be my final straw. 

On a side note, school is almost done.  At least for a few weeks so hurray for that.  But I still just really want to throw things and it may take a few drinks to get over this person just being a horrible human being. 

Beginnings

This has been a long thing coming.  I have pondered over doing an anonymous blog for quite some time.  For me, this is like LiveJournal 2.0 and I intend to use it as such.  Since I am not giving this link out, for now it will be my private journal used to vent and complain.  So I can feel like people are hearing me, but not really.  Because I really don't want any advice.  I am honestly quite sick of the majority of the advice people give me.  There are very few people in this world that I will listen to at this point in my life.  I am hoping that maybe getting back in to writing will help with several of my emotional issues.  It seems like my depression has morphed in to anger.  It was always there, but it was only the feet of the beast, and now it's the whole damn thing.

So this is me.  Angry.  Why?  I have no idea why I feel angry so much.  Genetics, environment play a role.  Suppression of so much while growing up that has decided it's done hiding.  While I had a good childhood growing up, I definitely have my share of skeletons that pretty much no one but my mother and husband know.  I think some of the stuff was bad enough my mom decided to not share with my dad.  Which apparently she tells him everything. 

So the information I'm going to share?  Female, mid to late 20s, married.  I have my parents and they are still married.  I have an older brother.  I am working full time and going to school part time.  We will just say general business stuff for now.  I live in the Midwest.  I think that's plenty of sharing for one day.

-B

Oh - I love music so I will probably share some of my favorite songs that relate to the posts.  Here's the first one.
Secrets